Patience

I have learned alot in the past few months. So I want to share some of my experiences with you. I am a bit of a hot head. I thought after taking care of my mom years ago before I moved that I learned some patience. That did not happen. I also sound like a truck driver with my mouth when I get mad.

I have told you in previous blogs that I have moved back to Philly from Chicago. When I got in town my dad who was my moms caregiver had a Hemorrhagic Stroke. I had to move in with them to take care of them and their house. Running back and forth to Dr's and hospitals. It really is a wake up call for anyone and more stress than you can imagine.

I have been fighting with Dr's, Nurses, and family the whole time. Trying to get some help from anyone. I cannot even tell you the language I have used. You would really be appaled at me. I have been tired and run down. Sick very bad twice. I have not been sick like that in years.

I did it to myself. Call it self infliction. One of those things that appall me about others. I finally sat down and looked at the whole picture. I was driving my husband nuts. Being mean to my parents. I was killing myself. That is not acceptable.

Instead of just speaking my thoughts which I must say that I am very good at that. I have since took another road. Thinking before I speak. I also am now taking some time for myself so I am not so irritable. I have always preached think before you speak and practiced it until I came back home.  I took a step back again to make sure I am true to myself.

I will fight the world to protect my parents. Even from within. I know how hard it is to put yourself in a situation where you have no choice but to take care of your loved ones. They took care of us once. I think it is our duty to do so. Just think before you act. Take the smart road. Patience is the hardest virtue to learn but we all have it in us. Remember to take a step away to look at the whole situation. You will be surprised at what you can see.